I admit it: I used to kind of take pride in the fact that I didn’t really wear makeup, much perfume, etc. Until I was 31, I had never ever had a manicure (a fact that, today, makes me kind of cringe). Even when I was in my mid-20s, my makeup was all left over remnants of my college days. I even sometimes looked down on girls and women who fussed too much over all that stuff. To me, it seemed like there were more important and interesting things to concern oneself with. I also liked the fact that I was more natural and “granola” looking.
My, how things have changed.
My name is Caitlin, and I’m a make-upaholic.
I am now afraid to cheat on my nail lady for fear she’ll dump me.
I need multiple things to keep all my makeup and makeup accessories in.
And I am okay with this.
Basically, I had a kind of intervention done on me a couple years ago. A couple of women I worked with had a wonderful, professional makeup artist show me how much fun makeup could be, and how it could help me play up my already existing, fabulous features. At first, this completely freaked me out, I’ll admit. I went home kind of hating it, even though I knew I looked great. I had spent the entire day looking beautiful, but I had a panic attack anyway. Go figure.
However, the next day, I found myself wanting to get some basic makeup stuff I didn’t own. I had not purchased foundation in forever (possibly middle school), so I started there. Then, I started noticing all these gorgeous colors of eye shadow Cover Girl has (I swear by Knock Out Pink, by the way). I found myself getting makeup tips from Carmendy on TLC’s What Not to Wear (see previous blog post). After watching her put makeup on someone with green eyes, I would go out and get the colors she had recommended for doing their eyes. Before I knew it, I had an overflowing Caboodle with multiple colors of purple eye liner.
I also found myself feeling more and more confident about myself. Now, I’m not saying my confidence is solely based on my appearance—it never has, and it never will be. I still sometimes ditch the makeup on the weekends if I am not doing anything special. I am just saying that makeup has served to help me feel more confident and put together at work, when going out for a good time, etc. I take a certain amount of pride in having well-manicured nails. I have come to realize that there’s nothing wrong in using these things to help you feel more able to take on the world. It is not shallow, or vacuous to be into those things, which is what I once thought. It is a tool for helping you say to the world: Hey, I am here, and I am FABULOUS.